Story of my deth:)

[sgreger1]

No Hunting on Discovery American Produktion, not the one they shooting on camera spirits

Just as an FYI, all ghost shows made in America are known to be fake. Definately don't believe anything they tell you, it's all scripted and fake and no one takes it seriously.

[sgreger1]

I will post a cool video later when I find it that sums up what I believe the universe to be. I think the god is ourselves, that there is one universal consciouseness, and that this consciouseness sort of daydreamed or looked into itself and created this world so that it could experience itself subjectively from within. Sort of like what we do when we dream, we are just interacting with ourselves in a world of our own creation, experiencing ourselves subjectively. I think life is just the dream of the global consciouseness, and the various characters are all an illusion, as we are all just pieces of this universal consciouseness. When we die we just wake from the dream and then eventually go back to sleep again and experience it all over perhaps.

When we look to the stars on this earth, just like when we look to the stars in a dreams, we are just looking back up at ourselves. If it is possible to dream a completely realistic world complete with characters, animals, solid objects, memories, emotions etc each night, than it's not too far off to assume that our waking reality is part of a similar process of some higher entity who has fallen asleep so to say. It sounds kinda stupid, but there is a video I found that sums it up pretty nicely that I will post later. I do not however believe there is an omnipotent god out there directing things. As many bibles and korans and other books say, we are gods, we are created in our own image, the image of the god that is us. Like a dream "me" is created in the image of me in the "real" world. But when I eventually wake, all that was important in the dream no longer becomes a part of my reality, and I care not that people were raped in the dream, or that people lived in poverty in the dream, and I realize the relativeness of it all, that the dream was just an experience and nothing more. so enjoy the dream while it lasts.

[GN Tobacco Sweden AB]

Just as an FYI, all ghost shows made in America are known to be fake. Definately don't believe anything they tell you, it's all scripted and fake and no one takes it seriously.

I accept it Sgreger but my belive in that this world is runed by some special guy comming not from tv shows brother but from the stories like Whalen , frosted Mr.Leon and me and others expiaranced ofcors I know about big bang and theory of everything but , there is something which does not feet in to the earls as we think we know , for example , about 27 years ago I see dream I am in the dark and I see abrocote stone in my hand I look further and I see my father without eyes standing in front of me .. It looks like I have taken away my fathers eyes with that stone ... I wake up crying ...about ten yers ago my father lost his view I mean his eyes dose not wark , now how I could see suche dream in my life ,? That what makes me not understand the how world works or maybe I understand that it works little bit deafarant then we here scientist say...

[Frosted]

Those are the kind of dreams GN. They are as real as life.

[heders]

Yah I do my best to live in the moment, realizing that all things are transient in nature and that all we truly have is the current moment (very Buddhist, eh?), but my anxiety really makes it difficult. I don't know why I have such anxiety as I don't have anything to be anxious about, but I constantly think I am having a heart attack or a stroke, and it just builds up this fear of dying from one of those two things. I don't know why i'm afraid of those things, i'm 26 and otherwise healthy, heart is healthy etc. I guess I just need to relax more.

Another thing i've had lately is that I don't experience happiness, or much emotion at all for that matter. This kind of bothers me. Like there was a time in my life where if the wife ordered a pizza and I had some beer, and a new video game just came out or something, I would be excited and happy. I no longer have these feelings of excitement or happiness really. I mean i'm not depressed about anything, I just don't feel happy or excited by anything, even things that used to excite me in the past. It's like I have no emotions lately and I just don't know why. It has been a slow process over thee years. I can watch someone get shot right in front of me and not really care either way, I can watch someone OD and not care either way, I can watch an emotional movie but not really get into it or care about the characters etc, I just odn't have emotion anymore and it's really starting to worry me. I don't know what I need to do to get back on track.

I can assure you that's snus. Because a little less than a half-year after I quit smoking and started snusing, I immediately developed anxiety and panic attacks. It have went on for about 4 years now, at times to the point where I seriously questioned my own sanity. Now I'm well more or less well because I know what it is and don't care about it. It has been the greatest lesson for me ever, and I have grown tremendously from the experiences. I noticed my anxiety sky-rocketed when I chained sterks/extra sterks. I had "what-if" thoughts about everything, and also suffered extreme depersonalization and derealization.

When I quit, I also experienced A LOT more emotions than when on snus. When you're on nicotine, you feel more or less like a robot, at least for me with snus. It is much more present when in an anxiety state as well.

This is how it works: in us people with a very creative intellect who are prone to anxiety, when adrenaline levels are constantly high and unpleasant thoughts and emotions occur (because of the flight-or-flight system which is an essential part of every human and of a lot of animals, and which nicotine triggers), we start to fear them, and the anxiety "benchmark" is reset at a higher level, because the brain is thinking this is normal since the adrenaline level never really reduces. With every symptom and thought you fear, the more adrenaline is released in to your bloodstream - and the more adrenaline is in your blood stream (snus is the main factor of adrenaline release), the more symptoms and "what if"-thoughts you are going to experience. When there is no real threat present, the mind focuses the "what if"-thoughts on what's happening inside you, including the worrying thoughts, which often spin to catastrophic interpretations.

I have always known snus contributed. When I quit for a few months a year ago, I was totally anxiety free, even though I drank 10 cups of coffee per day to substitute the nicotine cravings. The nicotine absorption is different from cigarettes, and seems to contribute for a lot of people (I've read) to anxiety. Cigs have an euphoric impact, and then quickly fade away. With snus, you build up your adrenaline to very high levels, which increase as the day go by, and this increased arousal can in very creative people develop in to an anxiety disorder. It sucks, but what can you do.

[sgreger1]

I accept it Sgreger but my belive in that this world is runed by some special guy comming not from tv shows brother but from the stories like Whalen , frosted Mr.Leon and me and others expiaranced ofcors I know about big bang and theory of everything but , there is something which does not feet in to the earls as we think we know , for example , about 27 years ago I see dream I am in the dark and I see abrocote stone in my hand I look further and I see my father without eyes standing in front of me .. It looks like I have taken away my fathers eyes with that stone ... I wake up crying ...about ten yers ago my father lost his view I mean his eyes dose not wark , now how I could see suche dream in my life ,? That what makes me not understand the how world works or maybe I understand that it works little bit deafarant then we here scientist say...

Oh no I didn't even mean to imply that ghosts aren't real or to discount what anyone on this thread is claiming, I just mean that American ghost shows on Discovery and elsewhere are scripted and completely fake, as in they are drama shows that parade around as being possibly true, but are just scripted fake encounters. There may be real ghosts or paranormal things out there, but the shows in America are entertainment only and are not to be taken seriously, some guy writes up the script about when to get scared etc. I have talked to people who were on that show Ghost hunters or whatever and literally the whole thing is made up and read from a loose script.

[sgreger1]

I can assure you that's snus. Because a little less than a half-year after I quit smoking and started snusing, I immediately developed anxiety and panic attacks. It have went on for about 4 years now, at times to the point where I seriously questioned my own sanity. Now I'm well more or less well because I know what it is and don't care about it. It has been the greatest lesson for me ever, and I have grown tremendously from the experiences. I noticed my anxiety sky-rocketed when I chained sterks/extra sterks. I had "what-if" thoughts about everything, and also suffered extreme depersonalization and derealization.

When I quit, I also experienced A LOT more emotions than when on snus. When you're on nicotine, you feel more or less like a robot, at least for me with snus. It is much more present when in an anxiety state as well.

This is how it works: in us people with a very creative intellect who are prone to anxiety, when adrenaline levels are constantly high and unpleasant thoughts and emotions occur (because of the flight-or-flight system which is an essential part of every human and of a lot of animals, and which nicotine triggers), we start to fear them, and the anxiety "benchmark" is reset at a higher level, because the brain is thinking this is normal since the adrenaline level never really reduces. With every symptom and thought you fear, the more adrenaline is released in to your bloodstream - and the more adrenaline is in your blood stream (snus is the main factor of adrenaline release), the more symptoms and "what if"-thoughts you are going to experience. When there is no real threat present, the mind focuses the "what if"-thoughts on what's happening inside you, including the worrying thoughts, which often spin to catastrophic interpretations.

I have always known snus contributed. When I quit for a few months a year ago, I was totally anxiety free, even though I drank 10 cups of coffee per day to substitute the nicotine cravings. The nicotine absorption is different from cigarettes, and seems to contribute for a lot of people (I've read) to anxiety. Cigs have an euphoric impact, and then quickly fade away. With snus, you build up your adrenaline to very high levels, which increase as the day go by, and this increased arousal can in very creative people develop in to an anxiety disorder. It sucks, but what can you do.

Holy shit that is exactly what I feel. I never thought about it being the snus though. And it did all start around the time I started using snus. I had only used dip for about a year prior to that and had never smoked. Holy shit, this makes me want to quit for a while and see if it goes away. Depersonalization is exactly what I feel. Wow, i'm seriously thinking about quitting now to see if this is the case. Snus definately exacerbates my anxiety, I know that for sure, I can feel it as soon as I pop one in, and if I wait until way late in the day to have my first snus than I feel fine until I put that snus in. Thanks for the info dude, I think i'm going to quit after i've exhausted this month's supply.

[Frosted]

When I first gave up smoking I didn't know about snus. I went cold turkey and gave up for 5 months. I didn't feel any different - not more relaxed, still got stress and anxiety like a normal person.
Just thought you should know.

The only difference - I was a lot more crabby than normal.....murderous in fact.

[Frosted]

Oh no I didn't even mean to imply that ghosts aren't real or to discount what anyone on this thread is claiming, I just mean that American ghost shows on Discovery and elsewhere are scripted and completely fake, as in they are drama shows that parade around as being possibly true, but are just scripted fake encounters. There may be real ghosts or paranormal things out there, but the shows in America are entertainment only and are not to be taken seriously, some guy writes up the script about when to get scared etc. I have talked to people who were on that show Ghost hunters or whatever and literally the whole thing is made up and read from a loose script.

Ghost shows are cringingly awful.

When I was in basic training I was in the 12 man room. I woke up one night about 03:00 feeling very very cold even though it was summer and I felt uneasy. I looked to my right and there was a shadow on the wall with the obvious outline of a soldier in uniform and it appeared that it was looking at me. That creeped me right out as everybody was asleep. Lot's of training soldiers had committed suicide in that room.

Another time many years ago I liked just going out into the countryside for a drive. I stopped off beside a field to get out and have a smoke and enjoy the peace and quiet. In the distance I heard the panting of a dog, it got closer and closer until it got really loud and right by my feet. There was no dog. I got right back in the car with the hairs on the back of my neck up and spooked right out.

My mother who is a complete unbeliever in anything spiritual told me of something. This blew me away because she was so anti all this. Her sister died of lung cancer at the age of 55. My mother had a dream where she felt somebody shaking her shoulder to get her attention, she knew who it was and was shown in her dream her sister with lots of children around her. About five years later every single one of us had two children. I'm sure she hasn't told me everything about this but she said it was very 'real' and beautiful.

My grandmother on her death bed, under the heavy influence of morphine predicted the day of her own death. She was unconscious for two weeks and the only words she spoke were these. She was clearly conversing with dead relatives and she clearly said "Wednesday" and she seemed to be satisfied and at peace. That was the last thing she said. She died on that Wednesday.

There are other things too but are personal to me and I won't discuss them here at all. All I will say is that there's more to this life than you can see, touch or feel. Fact.

[GN Tobacco Sweden AB]

Extreme you not kidding right?

[precious007]

My grandmother on her death bed, under the heavy influence of morphine predicted the day of her own death. She was unconscious for two weeks and the only words she spoke were these. She was clearly conversing with dead relatives and she clearly said "Wednesday" and she seemed to be satisfied and at peace. That was the last thing she said. She died on that Wednesday.

Same thing happened with my grandfather when he was on morphine for lung and liver cancer.

@headers

There's a lot of truth in what you've said about anxiety - I'm living with anxiety for years but in my case it's a totally different cause.

However the worst thing that creates anxiety when it comes to tobacco is the vicious circle of quitting and relapsing on an on .... this cycle creates the most anxiety. So you either stay quit or just snus and focus on other important things. Quitting and relapsing on an on is dangerous for the mental health.

[gax1985]

I had a near death experience when I was very young. My fathers family is cursed with near death experiences involving fevers. Mine was no different. I used to go into shock and My eyes went up. I dont remember a thing from all this at all.

[sgreger1]

This thread is so awesome. Extreme, those are some crazy stories man thanks for sharing them. I agree there are some things that are just hard to explain away as coincidence, especially when it happens over and over again!

[Roo]

I got hit by a Jeep 6 weeks ago and my motorcycle helmet saved my life. I was on a 50cc scooter though, if Blue was here he would have surely called me out on that. I miss that guy and would love to see him invited back. Different thread though..

One time when I was 12 I jumped into a canal in Munich's Englischer Garten (big city park), fully clothed and wearing boots, just for the hell of it. Of course the water was moving way faster than my little shit-for-brain could predict, and the canal turned a 90 degree corner and headed straight under the city (under the street) and through some kind of grate/filtration system. All that I remember was that wherever that canal was headed into the bowels of Munich, it looked like my demise. A friend who was with me ran around that corner and grabbed a chain link fence with one hand and reached down with his other hand to try to grab me. I was moving with the current at Mach speed but luckily managed to swim far enough over, after getting dunked under a pedastrian bridge and chugging water, and grab my friend and the fence together and get scooped out of the canal at the last second. I did a really foolish thing that day and I'm lucky that all that happened was vomiting and diarrhea due to guzzling Munich canal water. No white light and plurality/singularity revelations though, I have never been that close thankfully. This is a great thread

As for end-of-life experiences, I don't claim to know, but I sure like to read first hand accounts from awesome people. Thanks Whalen

[Frosted]

Extreme you not kidding right?

I'm not, no. I'm usually very reluctant to talk about these things as you can pretty quickly come across as a wackjob. Apparently I do a pretty good job of doing that already lol.
If I had any doubt about these stories I'd dismiss them myself outright but a lot of my experiences have been very powerful and so are very easy to distinguish from the ordinary. I also think it's important that if people are interested, to tell these stories and tell them accurately as they happened.