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  • LaZeR
    Member
    • Oct 2009
    • 3994

    An apology and confession

    As many of you know me and my ups and downs along with bringing much "drama" to the boards in the past couple weeks which I totally regret. You have all offered me endless support and compassion in the "addiction" we all share and deal with day to day. I just wanted to apologize to those I've hurt or negatively effected as of late whether by my sometimes questionable postings OR occasional personal attacks.

    My ex-fiance and I have been gone through some troubled times. I admit, a lot directly to do with my own depression and insecurities. Thursday evening we had another fight and it ended with me once again (2nd time), holding the very ring I gave her over 6 months ago.

    I appreciate all your patience with me, especially ICE. I know I've used this forum as a place to both "cut up - presumably in good faith" but not always working out that way along with a place to vent and unfortunately sometimes unfairly attack others due to my admitted emotional problems and especially at a time when I've been going through problems with my personal life but that is no excuse.

    Just wanted to share this with those that have grown to know me on here and so there is no misunderstanding if I'm absent more than normal in the coming days, weeks, months? I'm not sure where life is taking me right now, I am an admitted wreck. It is very difficult when you try to pour everything into someone and in the end screw it all up.

    I realize I'm a product of my own failures. Something I have to work on and try to improve. Just know and try to understand these are very tough times for me.

    Thanks,

    LaZeR aka Ron
  • GoVegan
    Member
    • Oct 2009
    • 5603

    #2
    Hang in there Lazer! I hope things pick up for you soon.

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    • Premium Parrots
      Super Moderators
      • Feb 2008
      • 9759

      #3
      well....dude. She may not be there for you..........but we are.
      Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to hide the bodies of the people I killed because they were annoying......





      I've been wrong lots of times.  Lots of times I've thought I was wrong only to find out that I was right in the beginning.


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      • lxskllr
        Member
        • Sep 2007
        • 13435

        #4
        I think things will start getting better for you LaZ :^)

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        • LaZeR
          Member
          • Oct 2009
          • 3994

          #5
          Thanks for the support everyone. She still wants us to stay in contact, seek counseling on our own, ect... It's just hard I've been down this road before nevertheless on a 24yr marriage that ended up in failure.

          The damn "Conditional" love I feel she puts on me is the hardest part, ala a lot to do with the "nasal snuff" situation amongst some others...

          It is just very hard times right now. :cry:

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          • daruckis
            Member
            • Jul 2009
            • 2277

            #6
            i feel for ya man. just got in a big fight with my girlfriend. got a little too honest about my lack of feelings. gonna be awkward tomorrow. shouldve continued the charade.

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            • Snusdog
              Member
              • Jun 2008
              • 6752

              #7
              Laz,

              bro apology accepted. Know that you are in our thoughts and prayers.

              I hope things will work out for you and your fiancée. Maybe you two can find a way with a little time and work. However, as I'm sure you know, as painful as it is-- better to find out now that it is not going to work rather than 5 years down the road.

              Anyway tomorrow is Easter. Maybe an Easter service might lift your spirits.

              Regardless, if there is anything I can do, let me know

              Oh and one more thing. Can we have the old monkey avatar back? It's just you bro.


              dog

              .
              When it's my time to go, I want to die peacefully in my sleep, like my uncle did....... Not screaming in terror like his passengers

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              • eyephantom
                Member
                • Jul 2009
                • 333

                #8
                personally, I don't give a fukc. I would like you to stop posting pornographic, Irrelevant pictures you deem funny, yet aren't. I'm sorry, If I wanted to see a naked chick on the internet, I don't think it would be that difficult a procedure, you ****ing idiot.

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                • GoVegan
                  Member
                  • Oct 2009
                  • 5603

                  #9
                  Originally posted by eyephantom
                  personally, I don't give a fukc. I would like you to stop posting pornographic, Irrelevant pictures you deem funny, yet aren't. I'm sorry, If I wanted to see a naked chick on the internet, I don't think it would be that difficult a procedure, you ****ing idiot.
                  -1

                  Whats your prob? The guy is apologizing and reaching out and you call him names? Lazer - you are definitely wanted in this forum. Please don't listen to that guy's crass comments. I do have to agree with wanting your old avatar back though.

                  Mods please delete that last post! Nobody should be able to call someone else names like that no matter how drunk they are.

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                  • eyephantom
                    Member
                    • Jul 2009
                    • 333

                    #10
                    dear go vegan,
                    can you read?
                    your friend,
                    eyephantom

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                    • Premium Parrots
                      Super Moderators
                      • Feb 2008
                      • 9759

                      #11
                      well.......heres the thing about deleting posts and threads and locking threads. If we do it because its somewhat pornographic or to eliminate a problem or because someone didn't follow the site rules or lately any other reason, you guys bitch to the highest degree about free speech and censureship and start a huge ruckus.

                      Then you want us to delete a post that doesn't agree with you? Hell, I agree, I think it was rude of that guy to say that. But he simply posted his feelings on the subject. Nothing wrong with how he said it, imo. But I can assure you all that, after the last fiasco, if and when we do delete a post or thread or lock a thread we expect your respect in the decision that we make and we don't need to hear any bitchin and moaning.

                      Don't get me wrong. We will always cut you guys some slack but when it goes too far we will react appropiately and do what we need to do. And we don't want to hear you guys bitching about it and don't be starting new threads to continue the trouble.

                      Sorry all, that just needed to be said so everybody understands. And eyephantoms post and GVs response was the perfect invitation to explain. All the mods are trying to do is keep peace on this site and keep it appealing for everyone, especially visitiors.

                      Shame on you eyephantom for your post. Shame on Lazer for some of the things he has done. Shame on me for some of the things I have done. Shame on all of us. No one is perfect. :wink:

                      except maybe the gal with the bouncing boobs.

                      yea bring on the old monkey
                      carry on
                      Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to hide the bodies of the people I killed because they were annoying......





                      I've been wrong lots of times.  Lots of times I've thought I was wrong only to find out that I was right in the beginning.


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                      • daruckis
                        Member
                        • Jul 2009
                        • 2277

                        #12
                        Originally posted by GoVegan
                        Originally posted by eyephantom
                        personally, I don't give a fukc. I would like you to stop posting pornographic, Irrelevant pictures you deem funny, yet aren't. I'm sorry, If I wanted to see a naked chick on the internet, I don't think it would be that difficult a procedure, you ****ing idiot.
                        -1

                        Whats your prob? The guy is apologizing and reaching out and you call him names? Lazer - you are definitely wanted in this forum. Please don't listen to that guy's crass comments. I do have to agree with wanting your old avatar back though.

                        Mods please delete that last post! Nobody should be able to call someone else names like that no matter how drunk they are.
                        i also think laz needs to bring back the old monkey. avatar association is important to me.

                        as for eyephantom, he may have been a bit harsh. but its a sentiment hes obviously still stewing about, and one that i kind of agree with. naked chicks are a dime a dozen on the internet. i can find them on my own quite easily. i have no real problem with the dirty joke images on snuson, but i have to admit to getting annoyed with the raised frequency of which theyre being posted. not because im offended but because A) theyre rarely funny, and B) it makes this forum which was once on the classier side, look stupid as f*ck. i opted to not say anything about it for a long time, since its really my own issue, and not something i feel like i need to, or have the ability to change. im sure others feel the same way. but since we're airing grievances i figured id let festivus come early this year. now i dont want to come across as though i dont like lazer. he is a part of this forum, and the token horny motherf*cker with the dirty jokes and shit. but i did think it was lame that as soon as a few people started coming forth with not liking the NFSW images he got all dramatic, took it personal, and tried to leave the forum, all the while basking in the glory of the people begging him to stay. things like that spark harsh comments like eyephantoms. of course thats in fact what hes apologizing for, so yeah i guess its not in the best of tastes, but it feels good to get it off the chest. try it, i just did. felt great.

                        bottom line, if i seriously have to censor the word F*CK, we should all have to go a little easier on the titties and such.

                        though i did like the girl with the hypnotic bouncing tits picture. some things just need to be shared with the class.

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                        • Snusdog
                          Member
                          • Jun 2008
                          • 6752

                          #13
                          Deleted my last 2 post as unproductive.

                          just one of those nights

                          :?

                          .
                          When it's my time to go, I want to die peacefully in my sleep, like my uncle did....... Not screaming in terror like his passengers

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                          • eyephantom
                            Member
                            • Jul 2009
                            • 333

                            #14
                            Originally posted by Premium Parrots

                            Shame on you eyephantom for your post. Shame on Lazer for some of the things he has done. Shame on me for some of the things I have done. Shame on all of us. No one is perfect. :wink:

                            except maybe the gal with the bouncing boobs.

                            yea bring on the old monkey
                            carry on
                            my honesty brings no shame, here is the deal, for the longest duration, the gal with the bouncing tits was nice; however, this does not render a snus discussion. In conclusion, we need a bouncing tits thread to end all discussion

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                            • LHB
                              Member
                              • Oct 2009
                              • 115

                              #15
                              LaZer,

                              Listen to Peter Gabriel's "Shock the Monkey" at foundation-destroying volume, restore your old avatar, and return to your old irreverant self. I'm older, and I'm much less favorably inclined toward change than I used to be.

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