Hello there
I havent posted in awhile. Last time I posted I was having a hard time with snus.
I ended up saying goodbye to snus and returning to smoking. Ive had a lifetime of depression, its always been there.
Smoking has pretty much always helped with it. And it did again. I was doing fine with snus for awhile, really. Like a year. But I was drinking a ton of coffee.
Anyways basically a month and a half ago I just wanted to cut down on smoking. I started smoking a cig in the morning followed by 2 general snuses, maybe another cig an hour later.. then smoked at night but kept pushing my "smoking start time" later and later. I made it to 5:30.
At that point I just needed more nicotine.
But now after like a month and a half im trying to do 4 snuses a day. I like tobacco but also like not feeling so stimulated all day.
But now my depression is starting to surface. I tried going back to smoking as much as i wanted all day. But I felt too wired and kept throwing it away.
I have no idea why Im writing this. Im probably going to go back to being a daily smoker soon. Im going to just get readdicted to it. I like feeling like I have more control over tobacco and not using it all day since I feel calmer. However i dont want to take antidepressants and i dont want depression.
Anyways good luck to everyone in their tobacco journeys!
I havent posted in awhile. Last time I posted I was having a hard time with snus.
I ended up saying goodbye to snus and returning to smoking. Ive had a lifetime of depression, its always been there.
Smoking has pretty much always helped with it. And it did again. I was doing fine with snus for awhile, really. Like a year. But I was drinking a ton of coffee.
Anyways basically a month and a half ago I just wanted to cut down on smoking. I started smoking a cig in the morning followed by 2 general snuses, maybe another cig an hour later.. then smoked at night but kept pushing my "smoking start time" later and later. I made it to 5:30.
At that point I just needed more nicotine.
But now after like a month and a half im trying to do 4 snuses a day. I like tobacco but also like not feeling so stimulated all day.
But now my depression is starting to surface. I tried going back to smoking as much as i wanted all day. But I felt too wired and kept throwing it away.
I have no idea why Im writing this. Im probably going to go back to being a daily smoker soon. Im going to just get readdicted to it. I like feeling like I have more control over tobacco and not using it all day since I feel calmer. However i dont want to take antidepressants and i dont want depression.
Anyways good luck to everyone in their tobacco journeys!
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