Hello
I am just writing this as a means of thinking out loud and hopefully it may be of some help to someone. Over the last year i have been trying pretty much constantly to stop smoking. I have folllowed a pattern of relapse which is failry uiform, getting to around two months, sometime more, sometimes less, then relapsing. I norally smoke a cigarette - the last time was half- then get myself back on the wagon again. This wouldn't be so bad but each time i relapse i have to start all over again and it is a very challenging two months . I relapse not because I want to smoke a cigarette but because i feel overwhelmed by the side effects of withdrawal. I have been using both an e-cigarette and snus during these times to curb the symptoms and have found them to be immensley helpful , but have found that i cannot use one exclusively over the other as each provide me with different tools to fight the symptoms of withdrawal. Now , i have been doing some research to see why it is I may be experiencing these symtptoms, which apparently are not typical for a lot of people . Apparently cigarette smoke has been shown to conatain a very potent MAOI . An MAOI has a lot to do with dopamne release in the brain, which in turn has a great deal to do with anxiety and depression. I believe now that over the years i have been self medicating with the naturally occuring anti- depressant qualities of tobacco , and that is infact what i am withdrawing from . It makes a lot of sense to me and i feel a lot better at least now knowing what is happening to me. I very rarel actually have cigarette cravings as such , maybe in the first couple of weeks i will have the odd one but the problem for me has always been a list f other much more disturbing symptoms which include: panic attacks, chronic depression, chronic emotional pain, feelings of paralysis- not literal but a sense of being entirely disconnected from my body and unable to focus on anything- decline in memory function and all round cognitive function, suicidal thoughts and ideation and just a general sinking feeling . Now , in the last few days i have been using snus pretty much exclusively and i have found that i feel a great deal clamer o the whole and that mys symptoms have lessened . This prompts me to thinking that the tobacco plant itself may contain the MAOI in its natural form prior to combustion. I think from here on out i will be sticking with snus . The problme with vaping for me , was that some times it worked - and it certainly helped with the behavioural aspect- but not for long , and i would get to the point where i was vaping constantly to try and clam myslef down, thinking it was nicotine withdrawal , when in fact nicotine i believe, has little do to with it ; it was the MAOI that i was in need of. In fact due to the stimulant properties of nicotine, i was actually feeling a lot worse constantly vaping , as i was trying to get a grip of myslef and calm down but ingesting large amounts of stimulants. Anyway , i am going to my doctor tomorrow as i now see that it is not a question just ' toughing it out' and waiting for the symptoms to go away. If anything they seem to get worse over time . Maybe one day they would correct themselves , that may take years however , and to go through a week of intense symptoms of the like i have described is enough to put most people i think in a position where they probably in danger of harming themselves , or someone else. So, i am going to continue with the snus, and i am going to talk with my doctor and maybe see if can go on bupropion as i am aware of it's capacity to act on the are of the brain that is receptive to tobacco. Alternatively there are MAOI anti depressants , which are quite old fashioned nowadays but can still be prescribed . I am not overly keen on resorting to psychotropic drugs as a solution but between the choice of going back to smoking , and staying like this indefinitley , i think it is the lesser of two ( or three?) evils. As i said i am not really asking for advice here , i jus have found it helpful writing this and if it may help anyone else who is experiencing similar symptoms then that can't be bad a thing either
I am just writing this as a means of thinking out loud and hopefully it may be of some help to someone. Over the last year i have been trying pretty much constantly to stop smoking. I have folllowed a pattern of relapse which is failry uiform, getting to around two months, sometime more, sometimes less, then relapsing. I norally smoke a cigarette - the last time was half- then get myself back on the wagon again. This wouldn't be so bad but each time i relapse i have to start all over again and it is a very challenging two months . I relapse not because I want to smoke a cigarette but because i feel overwhelmed by the side effects of withdrawal. I have been using both an e-cigarette and snus during these times to curb the symptoms and have found them to be immensley helpful , but have found that i cannot use one exclusively over the other as each provide me with different tools to fight the symptoms of withdrawal. Now , i have been doing some research to see why it is I may be experiencing these symtptoms, which apparently are not typical for a lot of people . Apparently cigarette smoke has been shown to conatain a very potent MAOI . An MAOI has a lot to do with dopamne release in the brain, which in turn has a great deal to do with anxiety and depression. I believe now that over the years i have been self medicating with the naturally occuring anti- depressant qualities of tobacco , and that is infact what i am withdrawing from . It makes a lot of sense to me and i feel a lot better at least now knowing what is happening to me. I very rarel actually have cigarette cravings as such , maybe in the first couple of weeks i will have the odd one but the problem for me has always been a list f other much more disturbing symptoms which include: panic attacks, chronic depression, chronic emotional pain, feelings of paralysis- not literal but a sense of being entirely disconnected from my body and unable to focus on anything- decline in memory function and all round cognitive function, suicidal thoughts and ideation and just a general sinking feeling . Now , in the last few days i have been using snus pretty much exclusively and i have found that i feel a great deal clamer o the whole and that mys symptoms have lessened . This prompts me to thinking that the tobacco plant itself may contain the MAOI in its natural form prior to combustion. I think from here on out i will be sticking with snus . The problme with vaping for me , was that some times it worked - and it certainly helped with the behavioural aspect- but not for long , and i would get to the point where i was vaping constantly to try and clam myslef down, thinking it was nicotine withdrawal , when in fact nicotine i believe, has little do to with it ; it was the MAOI that i was in need of. In fact due to the stimulant properties of nicotine, i was actually feeling a lot worse constantly vaping , as i was trying to get a grip of myslef and calm down but ingesting large amounts of stimulants. Anyway , i am going to my doctor tomorrow as i now see that it is not a question just ' toughing it out' and waiting for the symptoms to go away. If anything they seem to get worse over time . Maybe one day they would correct themselves , that may take years however , and to go through a week of intense symptoms of the like i have described is enough to put most people i think in a position where they probably in danger of harming themselves , or someone else. So, i am going to continue with the snus, and i am going to talk with my doctor and maybe see if can go on bupropion as i am aware of it's capacity to act on the are of the brain that is receptive to tobacco. Alternatively there are MAOI anti depressants , which are quite old fashioned nowadays but can still be prescribed . I am not overly keen on resorting to psychotropic drugs as a solution but between the choice of going back to smoking , and staying like this indefinitley , i think it is the lesser of two ( or three?) evils. As i said i am not really asking for advice here , i jus have found it helpful writing this and if it may help anyone else who is experiencing similar symptoms then that can't be bad a thing either
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