Had first cigarette since July

[chadizzy1]

I slipped today too. I had a bad day at work. It happens. But the thing that makes us stronger is that we DON'T go back to them. They no longer have control over us.

[sagedil]

LOL teeotee, just reminded me.

My ex hated when I smoked which I did most of the 17 years we were together. But there were a number of years when I was quit. Our 2nd trip to St. Barts, I was in one of my non smoking phases and she just laughed at me the first day and TOLD me to go buy a pack of cigarettes. For folks not familiar with St. Barts, it is France in the Caribbean. Literally 90% of the folks smoke there. And even though I hadn't smoked in almost a year, my wife just didn't want to deal with me if I was gonna be lusting after everyone's cigarette the entire week we were there.

So smoked for that week with her total support, then quit again when I came home. At least until my pathological liar/un treated bi-polar ex boss finally sent me over the edge.

I know if I were in France again, even with snus, I would happily smoke again while I was there. Just feels right.

[MojoQuestor]

To be honest, they were starting to taste terrible before I quit. They were relaxing, but I always felt like sh!t when I smoked. And even worse in the morning.

Same here. The thought has crossed my mind a few times the last several days about looking around for my cigarette tobacco. I don't know where it is. I think it's been a couple of weeks since I last had it (I took it to a gig, had a couple or three with some beers, then just snused the rest of the night).

A few months ago I would have torn the joint up until I found it.

I kind of feel a "slip" coming on, but every time I think about the reek and the feeling in my lungs I just cringe and have a snus. Well, that's kind of a lie, I probably already have snus in when I think of it.

UPDATE: I found it. Hmmm.

UPDATE 2: Had one. Half of one, anyway. Yukko.

Man, that brought back a lot of... feelings. If there's a word for what's halfway between feelings and memories, that's it.

Anyway, glad that's over with.

[fedora]

Wow. I'm proud of all you guys! I'm still smoking. Had 10 today, my usual hand rolled D & R (Three sails - absolute best). Still love cigs and rolling my own (unfiltered) and smoking them. Anyhow - I guess all I can say is that at least I am down from my usual 25.

Anyhow keep it up all of you, you inspire me!!!

[MojoQuestor]

Wow. I'm proud of all you guys! I'm still smoking. Had 10 today, my usual hand rolled D & R (Three sails - absolute best). Still love cigs and rolling my own (unfiltered) and smoking them. Anyhow - I guess all I can say is that at least I am down from my usual 25.

Anyhow keep it up all of you, you inspire me!!!

I can relate. After 2+ decades of prefabs, mostly Marlboros, they started tasting nasty to me after my second major relapse. I don't know if it had to do with the fire-safe paper I read about, or a change in me, but I started rolling my own, too, a year ago last March, first with Bugler, then tasting my way through the rollup world. I did try several D & R blends, but I don't think I ever made it to the Three Sails.

The absolute best tobacco I tried was Look Out in the red can. It had been sitting in the neighborhood cigarette shop for as long as I can remember. Naturally, I discovered it was no longer available in the US. (I also scored one blue can of that, but I didn't like it as much.) Finally I started trying all the Peter Stokkebye, and settled on the Turkish Export just about the time SCHIP went through and jacked the prices. I told myself I wasn't going to buy any more, that this was the signal I needed to quit smoking--then I crumbled and bought three more cans (to get free shipping). Not too long after that, I got my first Swedish snus, a little over two months ago.

The partial cig I had this morning was from the first of those cans. It's still in pretty good shape, amazingly. The other two cans are unopened. I don't yet know whether to hang on to them, throw them away, or try to sell them or just give them away.

I would still kind of like to get one more can of that Look Out red, but I'm sure it wouldn't taste the same to me now. I guess that ship has sailed.


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[Tin Man]

I love cigarettes, I always will. As I have posted so many times, one of my greatest pleasures in using snus is that I CAN now have that cigarette when that is what I want. And having one or two cigarettes doesn't change anything.

I agree with this. Every now and again, I just want one. Seems to be when I'm standing in front of the grill, beer in hand. So I have one. I don't feel bad about going across the street and buying a pack if need be, I just toss it in the freezer and if I pull one out a few weeks later and light up, no big deal. The best part is knowing that I don't need one.

[sagedil]

[quote="Tin Man"]

The best part is knowing that I don't need one.

Bingo, bingo, bingo, we have a winner here!!!!

That is what snus has done for me. Now, I only have a cigarette if that is what I want, never because that is what I need.

[Ulsterman]

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[Rottenstain]

I can't believe I'm saying this these days as I was a 20 a day 22 year smoker - but I cannot stand cigarettes now.

I lit one up a couple of weeks ago and could only smoke a quarter of it - then the taste hung around in my mouth for a couple of hours. Gross.

I do remember when I was a smoker waking up in the mornings and feeling sick.

It strange this seems to happen to most people, who can't stand cigs anymore which is a great thing if you want to stop because it puts you off even more. But for some reason i still enjoy cigs and everything that goes with them, even though i didn't have one for 3 months, they tastes as good as they did when i smoked..... maybe something do with certain people DNA ?



Anyone else who experiences this ?

[Mullolley]

Yeah, it's gotta be in the genes. People are wildly different when it comes to tastes and addiction.

[Rottenstain]

Yeah, it's gotta be in the genes. People are wildly different when it comes to tastes and addiction.

I think so too ! There some evidence published that proves alcoholics are born pre disposed to getting addicted to alcohol. anyway getting off topic now

[RRK]

Yeah, it's gotta be in the genes. People are wildly different when it comes to tastes and addiction.

I think so too ! There some evidence published that proves alcoholics are born pre disposed to getting addicted to alcohol. anyway getting off topic now

I read that the asian ethnic groups lack a gene that helps the body tolerate alcohol, and native americans are part of the asian group. This is what has lead to the high rates of alcohol abuse among todays native americans. I believe similarly native americans have genes that help them tolerate tobacco.